Separation Anxiety

I haven’t spoken to one of my best friends in over a year and a half. And I mean really spoken to him. We’ve exchanged a few lines in the last year, but then he stopped responding and…well, I don’t know.

Our relationship was all sorts of complicated, and at some points unhealthy from both ends, but I never thought it would end. I’ve never really understood how friendships could end. I’m a little bit in love with everyone that I know, I can’t just stop being friends with someone. There’s never a good reason for that. (Physical abuse aside)

A mutual friend has advised me to stop worrying about it. That friends don’t treat each other the way he’s treating me. But I can’t. He was/is/? one o my two best friends . I want to know that he’s doing okay. I want to know that his relationship with his girlfriend – possibly fiance at this point – is doing well, and that he has a good job that no longer requires him to sleep in his car. And yeah, a bit of me wants to tell him all about how my life is going. I suppose I could just continue sending him unread emails, but…that bit of me also wants to know that he still cares and hasn’t forgotten me. Friendship is never completely selfless, I suppose.

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New Years Resolution Continued

As some of you may know, my New Year’s resolution was to start drinking as much water as I do soda. 

Well, the resolution has been successful so far. I average about a gallon of water today. Some days I have a can of soda, some days I have two, some days I don’t have any at all. What really gets me are the bags of BBQ potato chips at the end of the hall. Those suckers are fucking addicting. Odd side note, I still think of them as the KC Masterpiece BBQ chips, even though that tie was cut on the bag a while back. Talk about effective branding. 

The resolution has actually progressed further than just drinking water every day. I’ve started working out with Karibabyhorse every day and seeing a personal trainer twice a week. Before you start thinking “Well isn’t that nice for you, I don’t have that kind of money,” I don’t actually have that kind of money either. Access to my school’s gym is $70 a semester or $125 for a year. That’s a little bit more than $20 a month, which I used to spend on chocolate milk (Yes, I’m a recovering addict). That’s a night at the bar for some folks, or just ordering out. It’s a well worth it investment. With access to the gym comes access to the personal trainer. It’s a really great deal. 

My coworkers laughed at me (not in a mean way) last week while I hobbled around for the two days after my first appointment, but I’m already starting to feel the benefits form the intense workouts. Mostly in my arms and legs, and not my tummy where I would like it, but it’s a work in progress and not something that will happen over night. The oddest place that I’ve notice slimming down is my wrists…they look very dainty now. 

I haven’t stepped on a scale since the very beginning of January, and I don’t plan to any time soon. Knowing the number won’t help me any. I already have plenty of motivation (my trainer is adorable and sings random songs – last week it was Mariah Carey, today it was Ellie Goulding) and all of this isn’t because I want to attain a certain number on the scale. I want to feel better. And yeah, I do want to look a certain way, but I don’t know what the number associated with that look is, so why worry?

More later. Time to dive back into work. 

Cheating on Sleep with Work

One of the most important things that I picked up yesterday during the Off Broadway tour at Barkley from Joe Cox was that if you’re serious about working in Social Media, you need to have a social media presence of your own.

Easier said than done.

Why is that you ask? Social Media isn’t that hard, right? You just have to pop in every once-in-a-while and say ‘hello’. It’s fun! You’d be half right, if you guessed that. Social Media is fun. Hell, it’s a lot of fun. But it’s also a lot of work. It requires and hell of a lot of balance. And for someone who already has both of her balance plates full, it can be sort of difficult. Really difficult, actually.

As mentioned, I’m taking 18 credit hours, I’m working at the university about 20 hours a week, and I’m working on LoneStarCon 3. I’ve got a little bit going on right now. And that doesn’t leave me a whole lot of time to spend exploring the internet for things to post about. Or, time for learning about awesome things (Like Vine).

If you want a job in Social Media, it’s not enough to just randomly post when you have a spare few seconds. You have to cultive a presence. Post things of relevance. Things that reflect you. It’s hard to do that when you barely have a few minutes here and there to check your email. It can be done. And I’m using every resource I can find to try.

But what do I do when one of my jobs is cultivating someone else’s Twitter and Facebook pages? It’s even harder, in my opinion, to cultivate a presence for someone or something else. It take more time and effort. You have to research the client. Get to know it’s audience. Learn to talk like the group would. You have to become that person instead of promoting the person you already are.

It’s a tough situation. I want to have something like that on my resume, but I also want to have a personal presence on the platform. (Yay for alliteration!)

My solution for now is to not sleep. We’ll see how that goes.

Summer Internship

Since the interview and rejection process hasn’t started yet, I can’t really say that it’s hard to find a job. But after today, it’s going to be hard to decide what job I want. There is just so much to be passionate about. 

I am passionate about Media Planning. And Media Buying. And Event Marketing. And Account Management. And Social Media. God, do I love Social Media. I want to live forever so I can do it all! (Which, I realize sounds lame because not many people want to work forever.)

I went to Off Broadway today, which is a set of agency tours put together by my school’s ad club, AdInk, and I’ve come away absolutely certain that the advertising world is exactly where I should be. It’s my job version of the romantic “the one.” At each agency I was inspired by the work I saw and the people I talked to. 

I’ve got a million people telling me to slow down and take it easy. “You’ll regret rushing through these years. They’ll be the best days of your life,” they say. But I can’t help wanting to be out there, doing something. Filled with knowledge from experience and making ideas come to life. And not so secretly I wonder about those people who warn me. What kind of life must they have to want to go back? I’m sure the bills suck (I’m certainly not looking forward to them), but there’s got to be more to life than that. Right? There’s work to be passionate about. People to love. Life to live. Please don’t tell me if I’m wrong. I’m not sure my optimistic little heart could take it. 

Time to sign off. I’ve got to update my resume and start non-awkwardly stalking the amazing people today in hopes that one day they might help me get a job or even hire me. 

And oh yeah, I might have some homework, too. 

The Weekenders

In case you didn’t know (and most likely you wouldn’t) I’ve spent 32 of the last 48 hours in the  Northwest Publication’s Newsroom.

Sounds like fun, huh? It is, actually. I’m the Editor of the Yearbook DVD – fun fact, the Northwest Tower was the first Yearbook ever supply a cassette tape and then DVD for extra media with their paper pub – so a significant portion of my time is spent down here. When I’m not editing I’m getting my homework done, or trying to catch a nap in the back room.

Here are the mugs of a couple of the splendid ladies that I work with.

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Kelsey, Jade, Tassi and KariBabyHorse. They’re awful pretty, don’t you think?

Hello to Everywhere

Yesterday I got a fair bit of traffic. Not outstanding numbers, but good for the first day of a blog that was established…well, yesterday. So go me for numbers! And go you, for reading!

The most interesting bit about the numbers yesterday were the international hits. I know who’s reading from Ireland (Hi Gareth!) and fairly certain about the folks from Canada, but I’m lost when it comes to those from Britain and Malaysia.

I know a few people in London, so if they’d found this through my Facebook page or my Twitter account, then nifty. Turns out the Publicize function for WordPress works after all. But Malaysia?

To whoever you are, drop me a note please. I am intensely curious.

Time to Commit

In the past it’s hard for me to commit to just about anything. Well, except sleeping. Sleep and I have a very serious relationship.

But this last month, I’ve been digging in and doing a lot of growing up. I know I’m not done, I’m only 21 after all, but I’m getting there. I’m digging into my school and personal commitments and really focusing on my priorities. I’m going to bed early, getting up early and making sure that I get everything that’s important done in-between.

I’ve always like writing, and blogging. In fact, if I hadn’t hidden them all because I’m terribly embarrassed by my past writing attempts, you’d be able to find half a dozen old blogs with half a dozen different usernames. But it’s always been a hobby that’s gotten thrown in the lowest, largest, filled with crap desk drawer when other things start screaming for my time. No longer. I bought this domain name, I’m going to use it! (A relationship similar to my gym membership…)

So, I’m here now. I’ll be playing with different designs and changing fonts. Keep an eye out for new exciting things! I can’t promise any of it, but I can certainly hope for it.

Nothing ever stays the same.